10/20/2020
(Above: The result of three broken eggs.)
Summary: Today began with calisthenics, piano practice, and PoA coursework. This was followed by a beef pasture inspection, Wagyu marketing visit, and about 10 minutes of gardening. On returning to Jacobhouse, I had to tend to Master Blend correspondence before I could begin writing which was interrupted a few more times by various phone-related notifications. 1.25 hours of writing were followed by a lunch of baked potatoes and kale-salad at 12:00 PM.
(7:47 PM Update:) It was 7:32 PM when I began the final update for today’s post. I knew it would consist of writing about afternoon activities, uploading pictures, fixing those pictures, captioning those pictures, proofreading the post, and et cetera. What I had before me was at least 30-35 minutes of work, and agitated as I was*, I was none too pleased with the state of affairs. So, I did not do it. I instead wrote those events in my own journal, included my thoughts – my actual thoughts, not those that I must doctor for the sake of public viewing – and set about preparing dinner: a sourdough flatbread topped with scrambled eggs.
Final Note: Logically speaking, my current status in life appears quite rosy: doing well in school, financially stable, and making decent progress in other projects. However, as per the internal agitation I am still experiencing and have experienced on a frequent basis for about 5-6 months, it seems that something must change in regard to my pursuit of finding a personal Walden. I’m not certain what that something is or whether it is inside or outside or both.
*I had a poor exam experience for PoA. Despite achieving a decent score, my ‘dander’ was up… and still is.
Such realizations are the gift of being aware, not sure it’s a common trait in modern day living.